A Racing Mind

The whole point of living is trying new things.

Exploring the beauty in life by everything you achieve.

Boredom is not empty but full of death. 

Creativity is what puts you into life’s breath. 

Dreams of sweet happiness caress your brain. 

Fear and negativity will always be your pain. 

Truth hurts, but lies kill. 

The choice is yours on how you spend your thoughts. 

You are what you think.

You become what you eat.

Your addictions control your life. 

Love is always by your side. 

You were born alone.

Let your mind be your best friend and love you endlessly.

Once you kiss your heart, your smile will be contagious. 

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Transgender

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She said hello ma’am.
He’s said how are you today sir.
As I opened the bathroom door I did not get a stare.
I don’t question which way to go. My steps confirm the direction I am moving in.
You look confused.
I am confident.
The body I was created in tells you who I am.
I am her, and I am him.
There is only one life in me to live.
My acceptance is gained because it is created by honor.
I cannot judge or I would discriminate what I have within.
So when I walk by, don’t stare say high.
Appreciate the human I am.
I am the omnipotent Love that you deny within.
Tears are not my morning dew.
My sunset is always beautiful in its view.
You can try one more time to decide.
But I’ll tell you only once, I am
a humans body.

Love

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The echoes of emotions are in my ears.
I’m so enamored by how the vibrations of love make me feel.
The concept of happiness has become my hedonist high.
I no longer imagine it’s existence, I have become the creator of love inside.
Every quake of my steps connect the earth’s magnetism to me.
The wind is blown by the pulse of my heartbeat.
I can feel the currents of rivers run through my veins.
My core is dependent on the life the earth creates.
Reality can’t conceive the love that I contain.
Logic is my sword, honor for life is my shield .
I slay down the enemy of love with every breath that I take.
Hatred is my adversary.
I fear not because I have all power since love generates in me.
My chakras connect to the universe so I am free.
Feel my presence, as the smile of my eyes trickles down your spleen.
Touch my heart as the dimple on my cheek, makes your heart skip a beat.
Not all can conceive the truth in love that flows through me.
All I need is one touch, and watch how one of my six senses will invoke love into thee.

Dom, Aggressive, Stud, Lesbian, Butch, FTM, Transman, Bulldagger

In today’s society categories do not classify well what gender an individual is. As science proves the beliefs of the world wrong, individual are able to prove with evidence to society, that they can be who they are. People are who they were born to be. Each individual has the power to choose to be who they are, or what society wants them to be.
Masculine women are born with traits of more than one gender identity. Being the Wo-Men they are causes them to accept themselves in their masculine, and feminine identity. Masculine women will not have disphoria, if they accept themselves for who they are.
When you look at a masculine female, gender binary is always challenged. These Wo-Men(masculine women) are usually ostracized, or secluded from societies labeling, as a particular gender identity. Masculine women naturally fit into more than one gender identity. Since these Wo-Men choose not to take Testosterone, nor do they want, or need chest, or penile surgery, to look, or feel masculine, they are not accepted as FTM( female to male, transgender, transmen). These Wo-Men are not accepted as butch, or stud, lesbians, because lesbians consider them to be too much of a man.
In reality Masculine women should be comfortable being masculine women, there is no category to define the third gender identity traits that they are born. Wo-men are classified all over the gender spectrum. Being a Wo-Man myself, I have learned life is more pleasant when you define who you are regardless of what others think. Otherwise you will spend your life in a dysphoria trying to be what you think you should, rather than who you are.

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Foods That Increase Testosterone Naturally

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These are a list of Vitamins, and Minerals, that are great for boosting testosterone. Included also are the sources and benefits of these vitamins, and minerals. Whether you are male, or female, by eating these foods you can increase your testosterone levels in your body naturally.
Allicin- Garlic(higher levels found in whole cloves) “Blocks cortisol enhancing Testosterone production.
Cortisol limits testosterone actions in the body and helps breakdown muscle tissue. ”
Amino Acids (Tryptophan, Lysine, Arginine are just a few types) – Figs, eggs, cheese, milk, potatoes, red meat, soy products,yeast, dry beans, plants, yogurt, poultry, turkey, lentils, quinoa, spinach, parmesan cheese, cod fish, wheat germ, seafood “Increases libido and sexual stamina.
Helps absorb calcium from collagen, converting fatty acids to energy.
Promotes muscle recovery after strenuous activity.
Helps regulate Testosterone.”
Vitamin A- Salmon, red peppers, pineapple, apples, carrots, spinach, cod liver oil Ensures the reproductive system is healthy, and that testosterone can be produced.
Boron- Cream cheese, poultry, beef, milk, egg, flour, noodles, carrots, honey, peanut butter, hard cheese, fortified corn flakes, homogenized eggs, grape jelly, strawberry jelly, grapes, red grapes, beer, wine Increases Testosterone
Bromelain Banana Thought to enhance male libido.
Vitamin B-2 (riboflavin)- Banana, yeast extract-spread, liver, dried herbs, spices, peppers, almonds, dry roasted soy beans Necessary for Testosterone production.
Vitamin B-5- Salmon, sardines, avocado, leafy green vegetables, mushrooms, cheese, Roquefort, Brie, Limburger Keeps hormones in body balanced.
Vitamin B-6- Salmon, sardines, avocado, bananas, raspberries, watermelon, peppers, Brussels sprouts, leafy green vegetables Keeps hormones in the body balanced.
Vitamin B-12- Salmon, sardines, avocado, leafy green vegetables, eggs, oysters,wheat bran, Mackerel, Trout, sesame seed, sundries tomato Keeps hormones in the body balanced.
Cholesterol- Eggs, oysters Testtosterone is naturally synthesized from cholesterol, which boosts Testosterone development in the body,
Copper Salami, ham, sausage, mushrooms Helps boost testosterone levels.
Vitamin C- Dried basil, dried rosemary, papaya, bell peppers, orange, strawberries, broccoli, Brussels sprouts, acerola(cheery), black currant, pummel is, pineapple, tomato, cantaloupe, mango, banana pepper, turnip, greens, chives, red cabbage, cayenne, ground cloves, dried corriander, saffron “At high levels lowers cortisol responses to heavy exercise, allowing your body to make more testosterone.
Reduces the armostase enzymes hat converts testosterone into estrogen. ”
Diindolymethane (DIM) Broccoli, cabbage, califlower Helps body get rid of excess estrogen.
Vitamin D- Catfish, herring, steelhead, mollusks, trout, sardines, halibut, crustacea, milk, cod liver oil, fish, fortified cereals, oysters, red/black caviar, tofu, soy milk, mushrooms, salami, eggs, cheese “Critical for fertility, muscle growth, exercise performance, and physiological process.
Vitamin D receptors are on the cells in the glands that release Testosterone. ”
Vitamin E- Cooked spinach, cooked taro root, avocado, asparagus, sunflower seeds, paprika, red chilli powder, pinenuta, almonds, peanuts, dried basil/ oregano, apricots, pickled green olives Stimulates the production of Testosterone protection against prostate cancer, Alzheimer’s disease, and bladder cancer.
Fiber- Navy/white/french/kidney beans, passion fruit, almonds, pistachios, pecans, nuts, sundries tomato, broccoli, Brussels, bran, corn, wheat, rice, oat, flax, sesame, dark chocolate, cocoa powder, tahini, edamame, dry roasted soy beans, dried herbs/ spices, peppers “Naturally cleanses the body.
Flushes out toxins that cause you to have extra estrogen. ”
Indole -3 – Carbonyl- Broccoli, Brussels sprouts, cabbage, sauerkraut, coleslaw “Cuts the hormone stradiol in half for men, and women.
Help reduce bad estrogen. ”
Iron Beef, oysters, red meat, egg yolks, mollusks, oysters, scallops, clams, turkey, chicken giblets, liver, artichoke, beans, lentils, chick peas “Deficiency of it is linked to low testosterone.
Vitamin C helps the body absorb iron better. ”
Manganese- Oysters, nuts, beans, tea, whole grains, dark leafy greens, spinach, collards Support optimal Testosterone production.
Magnesium- Flax, sesame, Brazil nuts, sunflower seeds, nuts, molasses, dry/roasted soy, coach powder, dark chocolate, oysters, beef, rice, wheat, oats, dried herbs(coriander, chives, spearmint, basil, sage, dill) squash, pumpkin, watermelon. “Required to have normal muscle and nerve function.
Improves the body’s antioxidant capacity, decreasing inflammation, which allows for robust release of testosterone and IGF-1.”
Resveratrol- Carrots, red grapes, wine Helps the liver remove extra estrogen.
Saturated fat Beef A key to producing testosterone.
Selenium Oysters, Brazil nuts, crab, liver, wheat, fish, poultry Boosts Testosterone levels in men, and increases the action of antioxidants.
Zinc- Oysters, beef, brown rice, lamb, pork, crabmeat, lobster, salmon, poultry, beans, pumpkin seeds, milk, nuts Supports optimal testosterone production.

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Is Heaven Designed for Bishop Eddie Long?

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Americans all over the United States have turned their televisions to BET’s (Black Entertainment Television) cable station and seen Bishop Eddie Long of Atlanta’s New Birth Missionary Baptist Church, preaching or doing a commercial, at one point in time. Leading a mega church with over 25,000 members the prominent Bishop Long is hard to miss. In 2004, one month after voters approved an amendment in the state of Georgia’s constitution that banned gay marriage; Bishop Long led his congregation in a march of over 25,000 people against gay rights. Long is one of the most vocal activists against gay rights, and gay marriage in the Black Church.
For attempting to set such a strong example of heterosexual role modeling for Black Christians in Church today Bishop Long failed. In September of 2010 multiple allegations of four young men in their twenties, accused Long of sexual misconduct. The young men had evidence of how Long abused his spiritual guidance for youth. The evidence Bishop Long faced was in the cell phone messages, texts, and portraits, he exchanged with the four young men. Maurice Robinson, Jamal Parris, Anthony Flagg, Spencer LeGrande, and one anonymous young man, accused Long of seducing them as teenagers, and using church funds to do it. Long gave the four teenagers cash, cars, trips across the world, and gifts in exchange for sexual favors. It all began when Bishop Long befriended the teenagers between the ages 14-16 years old.
When Bishop Long spoke to his congregation of New Birth, for the first time after these allegations, Bishop Long vowed to fight the charges, and his day in court would come. While outside the church Long’s spokesperson refused any comment, and his legal team began instantly negotiating with plaintiffs.
In May of 2011 Bishop Long settled out on this same case he claimed he would fight. It was reported that Long settled the payout with an amount between 15-25 million dollars. Importantly the settlement was with a gag order.
This case is one of many that happen regularly in Black Churches across the U.S.A. Even though this case could have opened a much needed dialogue in the Black Church and Community on such topics as AIDS, homosexuality, and molestation, it could not because of the gag order. Yes the victims were compensated, but the Black Church was not. By silencing problems of importance, the stigmas in the Black Church have gotten worst. In late September, in Atlanta when Long was accused, 20 ministers gathered to pray especially for Bishop Long, and not one of them prayed for the four young men. These men were turned away by the Black Church, when they should have been loved. Bishop Long was even crowned like a king by Jewish leaders, while one of the young men attempted to committed suicide.
Religious leaders are treated as “gods” in more cases than one. But even “gods” make mistakes. But how they are even crowned gods when they prey, molest, and rape, young children. Where is the justice for our children? By leaving Bishop Long in the pulpit it says religious leaders can do whatever they want even if it’s wrong, and get away unscathed. However, humans are all equal. Religion is a choice for adults; however, it is forced on our children to believe. Yet, no one protects our children when they are violated, by the “gods”, preachers, priests, prophets, evangelists, bishops, apostles, and popes, we tell them to trust. Due to forgiveness, if violators, rapists, and murderers, or Bishop Long repents they can go to heaven. Where is the validation for the victims. So religion teaches as long as you apologize, you can do anything and still be rewarded. Victims are forced in a hell with the pain of seeing their rapist, molester,or murderer, rejoicing in heaven. It’s time for equality in our world today. The truth of religions lies needs to be recognized, in the Black Church, and Community, in order for them to move forward. It will come as evidence continues to wake humans from their willful ignorance, into learning truth.

The Birth of A Leader

Trying so hard and its never enough, births a true leader by never giving up.
By cheating you shorten your steps, and delay your evolution to success.
Don’t be selfish, it causes rage in others, that will keep them away.
Be accountable and accept your responsibilities, so failure becomes no option, or disease.
Truth is your burning desire, it breaths through the knowledge you acquire.
Intelligence will help you understand, unlike religion science and history were not created by man.
Life is evolution, with no place to escape, unless you die.
One who knows everything is silent to learn.
Practice makes perfect, by leaving no option for failure.
By never giving up one can achieve.

Homosexuality and Gay Marriage in the Bible

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The United States of America is supposed to be home of the free. However, everyone in America is not free to live. Today there are couples with and without children in the U.S.A. that are not allowed to express their love for each other in matrimony, because of religion. The last portion of church connected to state is seen through today’s views on gay marriage. President Barak Obama fully supports gay marriage, and publicly states this. While religious leaders like Pastor Curtis Knapp at New Hope Baptist Church in Seneca, Kansas are totally against gay marriage. Pastor Knapp even went as far as to file a work order for the U.S. Government to kill all homosexuals (LGBT). You can hear Pastor Knapp state his views in his sermon at http://www.sermonaudio.com/playopup.asp?SID=527121350272 . This hot topic of legalizing gay marriage or not, is a decision that will pull apart or bind church and state,
Moreover, since most Christians claim the bible says no to homosexuality, let’s check out the truth of their statement. We will see if their religious word states gay marriage is wrong. Here’s what I learned on homosexuality in the bible:

Leviticus 20:13 KJV
If a man also lies with mankind, as he lieth with a woman, both of them have committed an abomination: they shall surely to be put to death: their blood shall be upon them.

An abomination in Hebrew is tow’ebah. According to Strong’s Greek/Hebrew Dictionary tow’ebah means something morally disgusting, but also has a strong implication of idolatry. Condemnations in Leviticus are more a condemnation of idolatry rather than homosexual acts themselves.

1 Corinthians 6:9-10
Or do you not know that wrongdoers will not inherit the kingdom of God? Do not be deceived: Neither the sexually immoral nor idolaters nor adulterers nor men who have sex with men nor thieves nor the greedy nor drunkards nor slanders nor swindlers will inherit the kingdom of God.

Here in this text when Paul writes about Men having sex with men it is in reference to male prostitutes not homosexuality. According to Thayer’s Greek Lexicon, the Greek word for male prostitute is malakos which means soft to the touch. However, in the bible malakos is used metaphorically in a negative way to refer to catamite. A catamite is defined as a boy kept for sexual relations with men, or as a male prostitute. Catamite is translated to English as a homosexual offender, which in Greek means the word arsenokoites which means sodomite. A sodomite is a person who engages in any kind of unnatural sex, but especially homosexual intercourse. The word arsenokoites refers to the men who kept catamites. No where in the bible does it say that it is not ok for adults to have sex with or marry adults of the same-sex, The bible was telling men to stop having sex with, and prostituting children.

Mark 7:20-23 KJV
And he said, that which cometh out of man, that defileth the man. For from within, out of the heart of men, proceed evil thoughts, adulteries, fornication, murders, thefts, covetousness, wickedness, deceit, lasciviousness, an evil eye, blasphemy, pride, foolishness. All these evil things come from within, and defile the man.

As we read Mark &:20-23 we find that there are more sins punishable by no entrance into heaven listed in the bible. According to Wikipedia only 31-33% of the world’s population is Christian, but the number declines daily. More people are learning the truth about how religions started, and seeing the evidence that they are man-made. So what happens to the other 22% Islam, 22% non believers (atheist, agnostic, freethinkers, secular, and humanists), 14% Hinduism, and 5.9% Buddhism, that are not Christian, and do not practice Christian beliefs. You see the bible has been translated 42 different times from its original state. There are also 38,000 types of Christianity practiced worldwide today. So how can a religion that is so confusing, because it has an imaginary origin be an answer for everyone? Christianity should have no more control over U.S. Government. The bible states no proof of homosexuality amongst adults wanting to marry. The freedom of gay marriage in America will begin to show people who Christians don’t control the world or think for everyone.

Notes: KJV Holy Bible, http://en.m.wikepedia.org/wiki/list_of_religous_populations, http://www.twopaths.com/faqhomosexuality.htm

The Butch & Stud Transman Aggressive Lesbian Defined

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I never thought of myself as a female or male,  I only knew what I was told to believe as a child, until I began to read and understand. Having only older brothers to follow, I always tried to excel at everything they achieved. Wrestling, football, weight lifting and drums were my childhood activities. Braiding Barbie’s hair was a waste of time. I would have rather seen a transformer being smashed by a mud pie.  At the age of two, I drove a Michael Knight car because it was what I wanted to do. I never understood why I was always told “girls don’t play the drums or football”, until now.
I am a 80’s baby born into an era where affirmation was physically justified.  I grew up in a time period when everyone was creating personal human definitions, regardless if they were accepted into society or not. Now in 2012 we are at a point where humans must accept each others differences.  Race, and Sex, no longer have boundaries giving limits to our capabilities.  Humans are now being forced to give their best effort, to excel in whatever they choose to do. People no longer want to be judged by their appearance, they rather be judged by their words, and actions.
My barber cuts my hair into a close fade hair style every week. In the morning I trim my side burns, and brush my hair neatly. I wear men’s clothing from head to toe. Boxers, briefs, and an A shirt, are the only pieces of underwear that I know. I am identified as a man wherever I go. So its more comfortable to use the men’s restroom.  The only feminine things about me are my vagina, and menstruation.  By strapping down my breasts my pecks look outstanding. I am athletic, and creative, in great outdoor activities,
You see I am masculine in every thought and action. However this does not change my body, because I was born a woman.  I am attracted to females, and only see males as friends. I treat my lady better than a man would because I understand her every need.
I am a butch, stud, transman, and AG, the masculinity of a man, is the appearance I maintain, and lifestyle I live.  Who I am is not just an image.  My aggressive nature as a woman has evolved through our human race.
Evolution is evident in our present time. Evolution is accepting that change is necessary for life. Years ago people had to sneak and be gay. Homosexuals were killed with no thought that a life was being taken, more than they are today. Today life is more free, even our President Obama accepts me.  People live as animals and are left to be, who they want. Religion and society no longer direct people’s thoughts. Science has changed lives, by proving truths no man can defile. I am a woman masculine defined by the appearance of my body that my natural testosterone has created. No hormones are needed for you to see the WO-man I am today  I am naturally a masculine woman who does not allow society, and religion do to determine how I will be portrayed.

Black Butch Freethinker


The first lesson I learned in life growing up, is to always tell the truth and not to lie to anyone. Such a contradiction to the lies I was told as time passed, and I grew up. Raised as most humans to believe in the power of one god, I was forced into Christianity demographically.  The Tooth Fairy, Easter Bunny, Santa Claus, and god, all gave me a broken heart, and an urgency not to trust people I love. The lies I was told pushed me towards all knowledge and truth.
As a Universal Chef I have chosen to be responsible for feeding people.  All 5 of every humans senses need nourishment to survive. My job is to help people learn what they need to eat to live, and how to share it with others. Through food, I feed the body, and through knowledge I feed the mind, which supports the body.
As you read my blogs you will see I love living life, and will live it past the edge of the universe. I am a proud Black Butch Freethinker who supports all life living. The more I learn the more I will share. The longer my journey the more of life’s knowledge I can share.